So it looks like I am going to South Africa for nine months!! WOW! That is crazy to say and type! I mailed out a lot of support letters this morning on my way to work and as I was driving to work, after mailing them, it started to settle with me how real this is and that it is actually going to happen. In so many ways I don’t feel ready but I know God is continually preparing me every day and when September 15th comes around I will probably still not feel ready but nevertheless this is what God has called me to and I am excited beyond words!!! I am excited to get out of North America and experience what it is truly like to have nothing. Although, I know this will be heartbreaking, I know it will also be life changing! I am excited to see what God is going to do through my team and I. I am excited to be amongst a group of brothers and sisters who have been hand picked to live together for nine months, working, growing, and changing lives along side each other. I am excited to meet my teammates in person and get to know them. I am extremely excited to meet the people of South Africa and build relationships with the ones God has chosen for me to build relationships with! Most of all, I am excited to tell them about their Saviour! About a REAL Love that is greater and more real than any love any one person has ever known or experienced! The One who conquered the grave and the only One who can break our chains of bondage! I am just plain excited! I must admit though, I did get sad last night thinking about leaving my family, my friends, and everything I’ve ever known. It will be hard to leave my amazing family and my amazing friends, but I do feel such a peace about leaving. I know God will prepare me to leave and prepare those that love me to let me go! I also know that satan will be attacking me a lot in these next few months but, it will be through these temptations that I grow closer to my Father! I am trusting Him completely for His provision in every aspect of this trip! $9,000 may seem like a lot of money to you and I BUT it is nothing to God! I am stoked to see how He is going to provide it! He is my provider! My Jehovah Jireh! So, all in all, I have a lot of emotions flying around but hey I am a girl…what can I say? I AM EXCITED!!!!
“Has not the Lord Almighty promised that the wealth of nations will turn to ashes? They work so hard, but all in vain! For the time will come when all the earth will be filled, as the waters fill the sea, with an awareness of the glory of the LORD!”
-Habakkuk 2:13-
-Habakkuk 2:13-
Hey hey, great blog girl. I went through every single emotion you listed too. And of course the excitement is still around. : – ) I’m also excited to see God bringing you the whole process. Be assured, as someone who’s a little far ahead, He will provide!
Mary! Mary! Mary! I am so proud of you, I feel so blessed to honestly call you a team mate and more importantly my sister. I loved you while I was interviewing you and reading this is making me love you more 🙂 You are awesome and God will totally supply the cash, something to small to Him is something SOOO BIG to us. But if this is where you belong (which I believe it is!) then God will supply. I am praying for you that God can continue to prepare you and your loved ones for when you leave. Keep striving for a God filled life! I love ya sister.
Mary, this was a great blog. I too felt all the things you listed and still do as I was added around the same time. It’s so much to wrap your head around but I think that is the cool thing, we don’t have to because God has it all planned out already. I look forward to getting to know you and serving together in South Africa!!! I’ll be praying for you.